darker than night brighter than day

yenkumi — Sun, 30 Jan 2011 12:01:17 +0000

Kangen kamu…. T.T gomen ne…

on my lonesome..

yenkumi — Sun, 19 Sep 2010 14:35:17 +0000

i need to be alone…

away away from here…

away from my routine..

away from noise and disquietude…

away from the weary me..

i want to be all at sea

or on top of a mountain

so no one can bother me

so then i can find myself..

the self that am still looking for

but God knows when i can find her…

song to listen: jamie cullum’s all at sea

…

yenkumi — Thu, 14 Jan 2010 16:02:41 +0000

Dear God,

I hope this is truly bliss

Not a misery in disguise

I do hope that this is the answer of all my prayers

Not a delusional thought of mine

Aamiin

l u k a

yenkumi — Sun, 03 Jan 2010 05:02:33 +0000

apa kabarmu luka?

semakin membusuk

semakin mengoyak

perlahan dari dalam

menggerogoti hati

merambati otak

bagaimana kabarmu dusta?

Tertanam rapi

Tersiram

Terpupuk

Subur bertumbuh duri

Tajam menyayat

Luka berbuah dusta

Dusta menjadi duka

Duka berujung nestapa

nestapa berulah angkara
Tuhan… sampai kapan aku bisa membuatnya tiada…?

an effing morning mourning

yenkumi — Wed, 16 Dec 2009 00:48:11 +0000

Have you ever think that the world cooperate and join together to against you, then well, I feel it right now… well, it might not be the whole universe, but for me… this is the universe..

I am an escapist by nature, aren’t i? for what I’m thinking right now is just run away from this… leaving this place… I hate this! Being a loser… left behind… or it is just me who let myself left behind

Good God! I hate you all, I really am… and I hate myself who hate you…….

Screw me, I know

Dear God… where are all of my positive thoughts going???

For I really am missing them a lot…

just dont want to curse but i just cant help…!!

yenkumi — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 13:18:46 +0000

yep, so i’m now a whore for you, eh, mister-know-it-all??

hate that i was just stunned and couldnt do anything when you’re saying that!!

God, which one’s the worse? the one who keep telling bitter things and love to hurt others

or the one who looks like their nice and everything but they’re actually not??

Dear God… i just don’t know whether my path i’m walking is right or wrong now…

i just don’t know God….

Please God… lead me the way… in everything…

because i’m a fool and really don’t have a clue…..

terima kasih, ya Allah…

yenkumi — Sat, 03 Oct 2009 03:24:52 +0000

Ya Allah terima kasih karena Engkau telah memberi hamba kekuatan…
tanpa-Mu, hamba benar-benar tidak akan bisa melewati ini..
terima kasih karena telah memberikan hamba petunjuk, untuk melakukan apa yang hamba anggap benar…

Ya Allah, terima kasih karena telah memberikan hamba teman-teman yang baik…
yang selalu mendukungku untuk melewati masalah ini
untuk menghadapi masalah ini
untuk tegar dan untuk bangkit dari keterpurukan

Ya Allah, apalagi yang pantas hamba ucapkan selain terima kasih?
Sungguh Engkau Maha Baik dan Maha Pemberi Petunjuk…

Amiiinnn

kenapa…?

yenkumi — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 14:33:48 +0000

kenapa masih ada sedikit perasaan

yang mengharap dia kembali…?

padahalku tahu dia hanya ingin pergi…

lepas… bebas…

padahal ku tahu yang ia mau hanyalah dia…

hanya saja….

Ya Tuhan… semoga perasaan ini hanya sementara…

tolong kuatkan iman hamba ya Allah…

karena ku tahu inilah yang terbaik

Amiiinnn

sendu.bingung

yenkumi — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 13:07:45 +0000

Merasa berada di dua sisi…
di kanan dan kiri

Merasa hampa dan kosong
Sekaligus lega dan tenang

Sedih dan bersalah
Sekaligus puas dan senang

Ya Allah… apakah aku berdosa?

Doaku hanya… tolong berikan kami semua yang terbaik

Amiiinnn…

… a prayer …

yenkumi — Sat, 26 Sep 2009 15:20:44 +0000

Dear God,

I’m neither Sherlock Holmes nor Hercule Poirot
I can’t deduct or analyze something obscured
I can’t make any hypothesis based from a little fact

So please God…
Please give me guidance
Please give me an exact clue
Literal and vivid

In order to make me understand
In order to make me apprehend
What is wrong and what is right
And to know where is the right path for me to walk…

Amen